I am wayyy behind on blogs...

not really maybe 1 or 2.
And that's only because I cleaned out the dumb ones that didn't matter.
They're like "bulk blogs".
Haha.

Anyway...
How's my life?

idk.

I guess it's getting better.
I'm happier than I have been in a while.
Thanks Kris.

It's weird how when we talk to eachother,
We can just keep eachother from being sad.
College will be so much better.
There won't really be much restriction on how much we talk.
Ha. I sound like a creep a$$ but I'm being serious.
She's like the twin sister I should have been born with.
Even though we get into trouble together...
I think that it's bound to happen.
And we've had our 2 free passes... or expensive... [?]

And I truly regret getting into trouble with her.
Not that it was her fault or my fault.
I think its got to do with the fact that when we're together,
We know we have eachothers backs.
So we feel.... invincible?
Haha.
A lot of good that's done.
:D.
I'm not going to lie though...
someday....
It'll be fun to tell my kids about the crazy sh*t I got into with their auntie Kristina.

I'm so excited!

And see,
I wrote one whole blog without writing about "you know who" (not Lord Voldemort...)
haha.
I'm doing much better!!!

oxoxo kayla. <3

Poetry.

I don't understand why I can't write any poetry.
My whole life, as long as it wasn't assigned to me,
I could write amazing poems.
Now that I'm being graded,
I can't pull anything that is worth anything out of anywhere.

It's a good thing Rowse said I can use an old poem.
Those are good.
Even though they're a bit childish.

IDK.

So, we're down to 11 days and one class period left of school.

It's really eerie.
I'm doing really well at holding it all together though.
I'm surprised I don't cry every morning when I say, "Ohp, 11 days left of school."
I'm rather proud of myself, quite frankly.


:D

Let's start over...

Inquisitive and thoughtful,

She was the challenge he'd been waiting for

A reminder that creativity runs deep, like secrets

Dark eyed dreamers - they were a dangerous pair

"Q" next to "U", scribbled out on paper

They stop

They go

They're done

Go back to the place we knew before

Retrace our steps to the basement door

I'll ask you if the rain still makes you smile

Like so much time that we spent in the fall

Put color in our cheeks while the air turned cold

Preceding what became our bitter end

Round in circles - let's start over

Round in circles - let's start over

Unanswered questions

Would be the only thing to stop them now

He was the poet, while she was the muse

She had a pen that she knew how to use

A touch of redemption, a hint of elation

A recipe for disaster

Go back to the place we knew before

Retrace our steps to the basement door

I'll ask you if the rain still makes you smile

Like so much time that we spent in the fall

Put color in our cheeks while the air turned cold

Preceding what became our bitter end

Let this be a lesson to us all

Round in circles - let's start over

Round in circles - let's start over

Round in circles

Round in circles

Round in circles

Round in circles

-Circles by All Time Low

This song kind of describes my life right now...

This Weekend

Was relatively uneventful and kind of boring.
I left the drama lock in early. (Sorry Rowsie...)
So I could sleep on Shane's floor, in his cold closet of an apartment.
And then, Saturday, I was assuming I wouldn't do anything fun.
But Jon's cousin Annee called me.
Crazy right?
I know, I was surprised.
We hung out for like 3 hours.
Things still are a little awkward, but I think it's better-ish.
Annnnnd.... Jon's girlfriend sent me a comment on myspace...
So, things aren't going to be as bad as I thought.
He's the only friend I lost in this situation.
Which I can deal with, since, he just complicated my life.

So then Saturday, Kristina and I were supposed to hang out with Chris Babl...
After she got done babysitting. At like 2:30.

But Chris didn't answer. Buttface.
I was up way too late.

And then Sunday...

Nothing really happened.

I stayed home.

I need to clean my room.

Really bad.
There're straws allllll over...


haha.


xoxo kayla

Everyone should...

follow my friend brooklynn's blog.

http://brooklynnpup-blog.blogspot.com/

Life, Currently

I have a plan.
I'm going to have a BURNING CEREMONY!
For those of you who don't know, I got rid of some extra baggage recently.
One person that I considered to be my best friend screwed me over bad.
It's okay. Someday he'll realize what he did.

Anyway, That day, when he realizes he needs me, I don't want anything to do with him.

So, to make this easier, I'm going to have a burning ceremony.
I know it sounds melodramatic, but I really think I was in love with this boy.
And everything reminds me of him.
I don't want to remember.
It makes it too sad.
Marissa said, "We should have a burning ceremony".
And more than getting rid of everything that reminds me of him,
I'm going to get rid of everything that distracted me from my life.
He was my priority.
I let myself drift from God.
I let my grades slip.
I even skipped school.
And if you know me,
That's not me.
I made him my life.

Now, I'm ready to go back to the friends that never let me go the whole time.
They were here, telling me they loved me, and I shunned them.
I hope they really understand that i appreciate all the patience they've had with me.
It means a lot.

Anyway...
I dearly and sincerely want each of the people in my creative writing class to come to this burning ceremony.

I feel that, as a class, we've bonded so strong.
And I always look forward to seeing each and everyone seventh period.

Even you Michael! =)

And bring your own items.

We'll burn everything that ever screwed us up in life.

I'll go last, so that I can seriously be done.

I'll get information on here later.
Because I really want you to be there!


oxoxo kayla

and don't worry, I'll be alright.

C'mon take a step towards me, So you can figure me out.

Brooklynn and I are friends again.
I'm pretty happy about it.
I think that when I'm in an unhappy mood,
I should just stay away from people that are trying to help me.
I just yell at them.
But.....

I'm happy again.
My life is okay right now.
Although I did cry today.
I had to watch the end of The Boy in Striped Pajamas...


AGAIN.

Why?
Because Matthew, who owns the actual copy we watched wanted to see the end.



Thank you soooo much Matthew.


Angelique had better be okay this weekend.
Or I'll kill Matthew.


I love that dang Tel Asmar.


Anyway, this is my blog before the big weekend.
I don't know for sure if I'll be on here at all, so I thought I'd get it out of the way now.
I bought my prom tickets today, which Jon actually bought, but I transferred his money to Ms. Polak.
Now.... I just need to convince my dad to give me $15 so that I can "buy a prom ticket" but really, I'll pay the $15 fine I have.



Screw My Life.... < toned it down for the younger set!




oxoxo KAYLA

The Boy in Striped Pajamas

So, it's eighth period on Tuesday.
Last period I watched the most heartbreaking movie I've ever seen in my whole life.
I won't tell you how it ends, but it totally made me cry, like a lot.
I can still feel the sadness.
I don't think I could ever watch it again.
It was that freaking sad.

I'm Reallllly Calm

Lately, this rushing feeling that everything will be okay has kind of covered me.
I don't think I've really been doing anything differently.
Except that maybe, I have lately realized that even though I'm best friends with people, that doesn't mean that they always have to hang out with me.
They're allowed to have other friends as much as I only want them to be friends with me.
I sound like a whiny baby, but I like it when people need me, and only me.
Except that seldom happens, especially when you meet people so late in their lives.
I am the exception.
I'm really bad at keeping friends for a long time.
Kristina is the longest friend I've ever had.
We're not even allowed to hang out.
I don't know what happens.
I think I have time management problems.
I can't make time for other friends because I focus on one friend, and don't let go.
That one friend knows what a great friend I am.
The others think I'm a shallow b*&%h.
Oh well, I like this feeling.
I'm just..... mellow.
And I do NOT do drugs.

welp

Today we had a senior class meeting.
It kinda freaked me out.
It showed me how freaking close the end is.
I don't have any real plans about college.
I don't have 7 million dollars for a prom dress.
Or 30 dollars to pay for my tickets.
Or sh*t, 200 to pay for my ticket for disturbing the peace.
Does anyone want to hire me for a moderate price for doing absolutely nothing?
KTHNX!