I'm Reallllly Calm

Lately, this rushing feeling that everything will be okay has kind of covered me.
I don't think I've really been doing anything differently.
Except that maybe, I have lately realized that even though I'm best friends with people, that doesn't mean that they always have to hang out with me.
They're allowed to have other friends as much as I only want them to be friends with me.
I sound like a whiny baby, but I like it when people need me, and only me.
Except that seldom happens, especially when you meet people so late in their lives.
I am the exception.
I'm really bad at keeping friends for a long time.
Kristina is the longest friend I've ever had.
We're not even allowed to hang out.
I don't know what happens.
I think I have time management problems.
I can't make time for other friends because I focus on one friend, and don't let go.
That one friend knows what a great friend I am.
The others think I'm a shallow b*&%h.
Oh well, I like this feeling.
I'm just..... mellow.
And I do NOT do drugs.